Anonymous said: How do I deal with not feeling real, as if I'm ina dream. It's a scary feeling and I feel like I'm observing everyone live and talk and I'm stuck in my bubble of fear :/
Sounds like you’re experiencing a little Zen Sickness. You’re probably caught in a belief trap, but that’s okay! Beliefs are just emotionally charged thoughts. They’re easy to get rid of once you see them as that.
I have written about what you’re going through quite a bit to other people that have experienced very similar things. You can go through those posts and then, if you have any questions, I’ll help you out.
You can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org if you like. Check out these posts:
Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder or Zen/Emptiness Sickness - Part One
Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder or Zen/Emptiness Sickness - Part Two
Depersonalization/Derealization Disorder or Zen/Emptiness Sickness - Part Three
DP/DR: Spiritual Growth or Just One Long Bad Trip?
Is zen sickness something everyone goes through upon awakening?
Sharing, as I’ve had problems with this myself.
Simply noting for now. Interesting info
"Even Jewish mythology provides a primal androgyne. Here is the substance of a cultural underground most directly related to us. According to the Zohar, the first created woman was not Eve but Lilith. She was created coterminous with Adam, that is, they were created in one body, androgynous. They were of one substance, one corporality. God, so the legend goes, split them apart so that Lilith could be dressed as a bride and married to Adam properly, but Lilith rebelled at the whole concept of marriage„ that is, of being defined as Adam’s inferior, and fled. Lilith was in fact the first woman and the first feminist both. The Jewish patriarchs, with shrewd vengeance, called her a witch. They said that the witch Lilith haunted the night (her name is etymologically associated with the Hebrew word for night) and killed infants. She became symbolic of the dark, evil side of all women. Of course, Lilith, we know now, made the correct analysis and went to the core of the problem: she rejected the nuclear family. God, however, saw it differently — he had created Lilith from dust, just as he had created Adam. He had created her free and equal. Not making the same mistake twice, Eve was created from Adam’s rib, clearly giving her no claim to either freedom or equality. It took the Christians to assert that since the rib is bent, woman’s
nature is contrary to man’s."
— "Woman-Hating" Andrea Dworkin (via fritzwethahbee)
(Source: kingcobracommander, via iseesigils)